Earlier today, I went to the gym with Anne-girl. The treadmills were full, so we cycled. Cycling was my favourite thing to do when I came to the gym regularly. But today, I think I couldn’t sit on it right. It was really weird. It was like I was trying to position myself on a saddle. A horse saddle, that is. My back was straight, even though usually we have our backs hunched forward slightly using those types of cycles. Also, I couldn’t paddle without having my heels down. Is that enough to say that I need to ride like right now?

While we cycled and chatted, I told Anne-girl of the evil prank that was played on Drac a few days ago. Her face lit up and she flashed the most mischievous (but satisfied) smile I’ve ever seen on her. This was very surprising, but it sure says something. If you meet her (Anne-girl) you would realize that she is one of the sweetest girls around. Have my tales of this internship really stirred so much emotion in the people around me? I almost feel bad.

After getting home and showering, I decided that it was time to re-plant some of our downstairs pot plants in new fertilizer. We’ve had some of them for well over a year and it’s a miracle they still bloom. While I was doing this, a new addition to my closet was delivered.

This picture makes my fingers look gray but I did like that colour lots. It’s Essie’s Capri if anyone was wondering. Though I am more into the sheers these days.

Perhaps it is a day for posting (or perhaps I have an ulterior motive?), but I decided that I need a plan. For both large-scale projects going on at the moment. My graduation project plan (the personal one, not the group one) can be jotted down on my notebook sometime within the next two hours. However, my new room rearrangement plan I will share with the rest of you. Maybe you can shed some light on things that I missed out on.

Legend:
Location 1: Bedside Table
Location 2: Overhead shelves
Location 3: Desk
Location 4: Chest
Location 5: Vanity Table
Location 6: TV Cabinet
Location 7: Closet
Location 8: Bookcase
Location 9: Floor

Plan:

• Tuesday 29th of April: Empty out Location 1. Shred bills and bank statements, throw out unneeded objects and put CDs away.


• Wednesday 30th of April: Bring certain items from Location 2 and place them in location 1.


• Thursday 1st of May: Rearrange Location 3 so that a new hole can be made for my scanner.


• Friday 2nd of May (morning): Remove uneeded items from Location 9 .


• Friday 2nd of May (evening): Return consoles from other rooms to Location 6 and remove items that are on top of it.


• Saturday 3rd of May (morning): Remove items on top of Location 4. Replace related items inside it (it’s a craft store).


• Saturday 3rd of May (evening): Fix up arrangement of things on top of Location 5.


• Sunday 4th of May: Start re-organizing items in Location 7, get new lock.


• Monday 5th of May: Finish re-organizing items in Location 7. Any items that don’t fit can be placed in Location 2.


• Tuesday 6th of May: Location 8 is done already, but need to do something with the bulliten board placed against it.


• Wednesday 7th of May: Tidy up Location 3.


• Thursday 8th of May: Bring up the stuff remaining in the other room… (almost forgot).

While this is moonspeak to everyone else, it makes perfect sense to me and I’m sure I’ll start to feel less stressed when the days go by and things get crossed out from the list. Looking at it again makes me realize… I really made no mistake choosing IT as my profession.

Watch the following video first (no, they are not exactly the same):

Now watch this one. Trust me! There’s a difference!

What do you think?

A little break from re-arranging my new chambre, laundry & my graduation project (or at least the bigger part of it). I won’t even begin to rant or complain about what’s going on there. When it’s over, I’ll miss it. Even if I say that I don’t & I won’t, I know that I will.

Now that YouTube is working alright for me again, I got the chance to check out one of my newly subscribed to channels. They had a video of an all-new Trauma Center for the Nintendo DS. The first game may have been one of the ultimate causes of stress for me at one point, but it was the type you would go back for simply for the relief you felt when it was over. Obviously, I will want to add this game to my vg library!

This time, I decided, that I will not practice ten different activities just because I can’t have that one thing I truly wanted. Things won’t be any different from retail therapy, and that is not a concept I ever want to put in my book. No more staying out late & away from home, just because that one thing isn’t here anymore.

Yes, I will continue to always fight for what I want. But for now, I think I will just try to be handy around the house. Taking care of the dying fleurs downstairs, spending more time with Bunbun and preparing to bring him a friend, maybe even getting a different pet altogether (already got the approval for the one I wanted). Study my French verbs. Organize and clean out my new chambre, because I’ve been living in it again for a while now but I won’t put up any pictures yet.

I’ve been having my meals delivered for the past month from Right Bite. According to them, my target weight is actually several kgs higher than it is now but I will continue to recieve my meals from them because I want to be balanced overall. It has been so comfortable because there’s always variety and I am slightly more tolerant towards vegetables now (only slightly, mind you) and try to have fruits pretty often (though not as regularly as I’ve been recommended to). And best of all, I’ve drastically reduced my milktea intake since I’ve started on their program. It went from somewhere near 10 cups a day to about 4. Yesterday was an exception but that was one out of thirty.

Anyway, I think I will note down meals of note so I can see what I’ve tried out, what I’ve liked or didn’t like so I wouldn’t order it again later. Today I had Chicken Sausage Rolls as a snack and it was delicious!

It’s probably time for me to start taking my work home.

What do you guys think of this bracelet? I know it seems a bit much but I’m going to wait till I’ve seen it in person to decide. It just reminds me of something sweet. Being in a garden surrounded by green, tickled by a cool breeze. Not something you would see around here, especially not at the coming months.

Why am I still standing? Sometimes I wonder, I look around and wonder. Why is it that everyone else is moving forward and you are the only one that still haven’t figured out how to begin? The truth probably isn’t as drastic as that, but it certainly is the way it seems. It keeps looking like everyone else has it easy, what takes you years to fight for it seems to take them weeks to achieve. While it seems incredibley unfair, and some may want to blame it on lady luck and how she chooses. Well, I don’t believe in luck. Instead of just standing there wondering whether you’re unworty, undeserving or plain not good enough for the things you want and wondering why everyone else can do it, keep going, take these challenges head on. Everyone has troubles and challenges that come between them and what they want but they deal with the differently. And just because they never tell anyone about their troubles, it doesn’t mean that they don’t exist.

Once this internship is over, I will officially apply for the next stage of my education. Not just be on a list, but fill out the forms. Till then, the office will be my residence.

I went for a swim to clear my head. Now I am so relaxed that I can be KO’d at any moment now. One thing that’s exciting me enough to stay up is that my copy of Persona 3 FES was kindly sent to me today. Reading what online retailers have to say about it makes me sigh, literally. I can’t wait to play.

Never did mention how things went on with the riding gloves (which I finally recieved a little over a week ago, by the way), but they’re amazing. The gloves I had about a year ago got extremely hot and really hard to use. These ones actually keep my hands cool! The only problem is that mine are lilac and my grip turned dark form the reins. I’ve been soaking them for that but I guess we’ll see.

Sometimes, company is everything. I’ve spent so much time thinking about this that I’ve put myself in a state of misery. This mood itself spawned two creations, one can be found on my dA, and the other is a secret piece of writing that I’ve shared with one person so far, and told another of but never shared.

What exacted spawned this horrible mood? Well, for one thing, I seek companionship. Someone to enjoy my interests with. Someone to share mutual support and unconditional feelings with. In my figure skating group, there’s an 8 year difference between me and the second oldest skater. Although everyone is nice, I feel bored and alone. In tennis, it was slightly better but only slightly. It was better in the sense of age different not being as much of an issue and, really, all activities had to be just you and the trainer (at my below beginner level) and everyone had a turn.

With riding, it is completely different. There are two types of companions. People you go and ride with (whether ‘classmates’ or trainer), and the magnificent animals you ride. It never feels like just me, even if I’m the only human person in the arena, the horses always have such strong character that shows in their every action. They listen to you, even when it doesn’t seem like they do, and they have a lot to say, even when we don’t fully understand it. We’ve had so many bad days that we ended up coming home depressed (and some of us even in tears), but we always go back ready to take on the next challenge. I never want this taken away from me. Not again. Not ever.

Now that I’ve successfully replaced my douche with a bain (and hurt my finger in its first use), I would like some suggestions for having a soak. I’ve got some of Juicy Couture’s caviar body soak, but nothing else and it would be nice to try different things every once in a while… any favourite bath oils or bubbles?