So tomorrow morning I have an important interview, so I decided it was probably a good time to spend relaxing rather than just doing the things that would get me frustrated; like going to a 3.30 class and having to wait an hour and 15 minutes for it to start. I had a lot of activities today, I was barely home. It was a lot of fun and I guess going dancing is really how I relax, even though it is getting somewhat redundant lately. Gonna have to try something new next time. I love Hawaiian the most but the music hasn’t really been supporting that style of dance. For further relaxation, I took a long bath and spent some time thinking about absolutely nothing… just taking in the scents of my scrub, shower gel and shower oil.

Before lunch I browsed some stores in search of my pair of pants and found nothing… I walked into Promod and they have a lot of lovely summer clothes but for some reason I didn’t want anything. I feel I have too much clothes that I never wear anymore, it makes shopping feel like such a waste. I need to start with my Spring cleaning but somehow I don’t know if this would happen any time soon…. I barely spend any time on my own anymore, and when I do, it is because of studying for exams or researching or writing reports. But I know I won’t rest till I’m done with Spring cleaning!

Before I go wash off my facial mask, I’ll leave you with my picture of the day. Well. It was a picture of a few months ago. Don’t you think these cards must be stimulating the economy somehow?

Today I am feeling kind of sad because I feel haunted by the past… and because of the people in my life now that know the past. I wish I could go back to ignoring it and just saying that “I don’t care what those people thought,” that “those people had so much chaos in their lives and were so self-centered that they thought a lot of things revolved around them,” – that they did not know me like they thought they did. I used to struggle with that thought so much; so much that I didn’t want to blog anymore, that I was afraid to write. Why did people assume they knew things about you that you didn’t know yourself from just reading your blog? Sure I write down any random things that come to mind, but really, do you expect me to to really get into the specific details of my daily activities, my deeper and more private thoughts? How can some random stranger on the internet presume to know something, and even claim that “everyone knows it – just because they don’t tell it to you doesn’t mean that they don’t know it,”. Moreover, why do these strangers even care? Do they have that much time on their hands?

Enough about that… I want to think about other stuff now.

This morning I went to a branch of L’Occitane and picked up a couple of stuff. For some reason these days when I buy lotions or shower gels or whatever, I always opt for the small sizes… maybe because I keep trying to convince myself that I like variety… but when I look in my bathroom and check my bath supplies, how many rose scented items have I owned over the past year? Although variety is good.. I guess it is also good to know what you like.

I actually needed to shop some more (from other places – I need a pair of sweat pants) but I didn’t really have the time. Since M’s classes for tomorrow morning were canceled…it was decided that there might be a person that would want to take me shopping! Well, the main event would be a meal but since there is a Zara, Promod, etc etc just a few floors under… why not!

Before I go off and start my night-time rituals, I just thought I’d express how overjoyed I am at how our rooms look now on poupeegirl! Even though it won’t last a very long time, I think I love it the most; along with the room from the 2009 Valentines Day event, and the items are just as cute. I am just waiting for some market releases right now…I hope the items I want for my poupee get released soon…

This day was lost on so many different things and I really should have been spending my time differently. Instead of actually starting what I am supposed to do, I keep having these thoughts of rearranging my stuff in my room; in other words, “Spring Cleaning”. So in the spirit of actually doing what needs to be done, and de-stressing, I thought I’d note it down here in a list (like I seem to do, every other semester…):

And then we’ll take it from there. Now I do realize this does not mean a thing to all you random people out there that might stumble around here, it even kind of weirds me out to go back to my old entries and read all those lists I used to make – but I have to make them somewhere to be able to get through my stressful times.

While I’m still in the mood to blog, I thought I’d talk about my recent experiences with the Nintendo DSi. Upon hearing of it for the first time, I was not even interested… and even more disappointed that it cannot do my laundry (inside joke). After trying one out for the first time every last night, I have to say I am intrigued! Or perhaps had too much fun with the camera features. Anything that allows me to see the screen better is a thumbs up for me, as well. But I don’t think I’m gonna go out and get one yet. I’ll probably make a more mature and thought-out decision when I’m done with my mid-semester stuff.

I have an awful headache right now but I’ll just say one last thing before I go. I got some of the Hello Kitty collection stuff from MAC… and now I’m interested in the upcoming Sugarsweet (it is not released here yet) but mostly for their sugarsweet shadesticks!

It seems like I never want to keep a blog for that long, I almost want to terminate this one and set up a blogger on this domain!

It seems that every once in a while, I need to have a post about my own contemplative thoughts on the world, life & faith around here. I hope that you guys have prepared yourself for this and won’t get offended.

There are numerous occasions in my life where I felt lost, confused and unsure of where things are going. Every single time in those crossroads, my sole comfort and my savior is knowing that a greater being exists out there, one that is omnipotent and all-knowing; and that my life and fate is in their hands. That somehow, someway, everything will be fine – and I will be happy with whatever is chosen for me.

Having said that, I feel that there is one detail about my beliefs that I must clarify. Although I do feel that my beliefs protect me, and satisfy me spiritually – it does not mean that life does not exist without hardship. It pains me to hear things like, “I was a good person, why is this happening to me?” because I strongly believe that hardships and difficulties are a part of life. Going through something difficult does not mean that one has fallen out of grace. It does not mean that people should say things like, “this happened to you because you believe in the wrong thing,” or “because you have no God in your life,”. It does not matter what you believe in or what you’ve been doing with your life, good and bad things exist and they will occur. It is your duty to make the best of everything – and I’m sure that no belief system out there can disagree with this!

Sometime this past year I heard a saying that I could not help but smile at, it might give you an idea of what I think of diversity. We all believe in different things and we are all free to practice what we wish. That is the beauty of this world. This is why we exist, to be different and to appreciate each others’ differences in thoughts, philosophy and so on.

Earlier in my ethics class we were talking about cloning. The class consisted of Christians and Muslims, and ultimately both religions consider the topic unethical. A question was raised – should there ever be a human clone, would it have a soul? It is “human-made”, where would it go in the afterlife? Would it even exist? To that question I quickly answered that yes, I believe that it would. However, it did not come to my realization why I believed it to be so. When I took some time to think about it, I think I can finally shed some light on it. Although humans could be “playing God” by “creating” a clone, I still believe that this clone is not “human-made”. While, scientifically, yes, humans did play a large role in this clone’s existence – they still did not breathe life into it. The same way parents do not breathe life into their child and do not give it a soul. This is the way I see it anyway.

So this post will have a little something for everyone, I decided to add a little something extra. After the Sahara branch of Elianto closed down, I realized that it was not the only branch! Though I did not verify the locations on this website since it still indicates that the Sahara branch is open… is it?

And here is my poupee going all-out on the school girl look.